Dear Friends and Family,
After coming to the realization that bringing my mom home no longer an option my dad and I set out to find a facility that will best care for her needs. Over the past two days we visited Chenal Heights, Little Rock Healthcare, Northridge, and Presbyterian Village. Our choice, as of now, is Presbyterian Village. I know, many of you may have many kind recommendations on places that your family members have been; right now I do not need to hear them. Sorry and thank you, but I have to be honest.
My mom was pretty agitated yesterday. She gets pretty over-stimulated during visiting hours and can become upset. Yesterday was my turn for her to not like me. She was pretty agitated with me from the moment my dad and I walked in the room, even though she didn't know who I was. Her condition was the same today, and they decided to start a new drug regimen to see if it helps control the combativeness. Today, during the last 15 minutes we were visiting she had calmed down enough to say "I love you" back to me. Those are words I will never take for granted again.
I went to talk with a pastor at Fellowship this morning with Eleanor and my dad. I think the best advice he gave us, something I have not prepared myself for, is that though we may be ready for her to die and finally be at peace, with that is going to come a finality. Though our mom is basically already gone now, we can still touch her, occasionally hear "I love you" and see her face. Once she dies, she will be gone. For five years I have been loosing pieces, but for it all to be gone - for that I am selfishly not ready.
My dad and I spent some time this afternoon looking at the pictures Ashley took. What a sweet memory for us to cherish of my beautiful mom!
We hope you will join with our family as we rejoice in the miracle of our Savior's birth this week. What joy we have to be called His and to know that we will one day be home with Him.
Merry Christmas with Love,